Saturday, January 25, 2014
streams of thought...january 25th, 2014
"It is not because things are difficult that we dare not venture. It is because we dare not venture that they are difficult" - Seneca (1st Century)
I think that we need a break. A moment of time where we allow time to move while we pause. Perhaps we need to walk into a field or to find a chair in our home and close our outward vision of all that is going on around us. This world of ours is a lot to take in don't you think?
We need to open our eyes and hearts to the possibilities.
Someone asked me recently about this new mantra of mine. Just in case someone has missed it or perhaps we have just started to walk this journey together; I made this year my year of "Breaking Script". It is actually a title of a talk that Rabbi Sharon Brous gave this past September. My ears are open to all truths and she is one of my favorite people to hear truth from.
"Breaking Script" simply means that the role that I had been playing is no longer the role I accept or want to continue have a part in.
When we stop to think about the role we play, let’s ask some questions.
How many relationships are we in that are unhealthy and undermined our own sense of value? It doesn't matter what kind of relationship it is; because anytime we interact with another person or group it is relationship. Sadly, we might even be doing this to ourselves.
How many of us are in dream state where we wish we could fully utilize our skills but we seem invisible at the place where we work?
How many are in family relationships that have placed us in the role of being a rescuer...a victim...a locus of blame...an enabler?
How many classes have we sat in where we are nothing more than a student id number?
How many of us have walked into a gym where we simply feel uncomfortable?
How many of us have sat in our homes wishing that we had a sense of connection with others so we become addicted to social media?
Relationships are delicate balances. So is life. They can bring us utter and unimaginable joy... a sense of acceptance that is not just physical but goes much deeper than that. They can, also, bring us pain... a state of being where you just can't move. I think we all have experienced both joy and pain to this degree.
We look back at not just what was but we think about what we truly hoped that it would have been. We have a struggle that leads us to wanting more but we stopped to think about what we have to do to make it different?
We have to risk living a life that is not filled with "what if's" and "should I's". Let’s find out what inspires us to have a role that gives us a sense of value and space. If we are really wanting to live a life that allows us to breathe deeply, we will realize that it is not perfection that what we should strive for but it is a sense of inner strength of moving in life knowing that you are being present and authentic. This effort to discover who we are is the place to begin and from this beginning place we should not settle for the lesser of who we are but to chase... to grab on to... and to embrace the greater part of who we are meant to be. We need to stop being the lesser of who we are because how we present ourselves is how others will accept us.
In my effort of breaking script from my previous illness, the other day I was running and I was thinking about a lot of different things, as I always seem to do. I thought about those that are still suffering from illnesses that have turned their lives upside down. I thought about a friend who recently lost a deeply loved one. I thought about what I can do to make my project to Nicaragua the best it can be... I thought of the people that are suffering from abuse, disease, and mental disorders.
An idea came to mind...
For us to be a light we need to go into the darkness. For us to share love we have to confront hatred. For us to give hope we have to be willing to pick up those who are empty of all hope.
In other words, breaking script for me means that I have to risk. I have to step outside the normal course of life and to risk being authentic. I know the script that I have been playing for too long and that is a role that I am no longer willing to be a part of. What does "taking a risk" mean for you? I have no idea; however, you do.
We need to be bold in our lives. We need to live with a lion's heart.
We always be pushed into roles that emphasize a lesser filled life, it is simply a struggle that we will always encounter. We need to remember… we deserve to live a life that displays our greater and true self.